Heart on Fire

Getting lost in my music is my one true joy in life. I love the pounding of the beat in my ear drums. I could close my eyes and lose my self in the splendor of it. It's like the music surrounds me in a bubble of pure peace and calm. It feels me up with hope, that there isn't a reason to doubt, it gives me energy when I feel dead, brings me back to life when I feel like I want to give up on everything. It gives me this sense of power, like I could concur this world, that I'm capable of doing anything. Music fits my every mood from sad, to happy and excited to lazy and Hindi. Music has such power on this world that's why it's one of the oldest ways to communicate and celebrate. The world would be dole and lifeless without the power of inspiration music gives to the world. It speaks volume to so many people, singers sing from their heart and soul. Giving hope to people everywhere, every human being has at least one song they can connect to. Music gives people a voice to stand up for what they believe in, the courage to make a difference at time through song. Lady gaga's new single is about accepting ones self and forget what other people think, to not judge others and believe in your self no matter what is going on.

I've been living the past month with a wall surrounding my heart because I didn't want to feel pain or sadness. I've been wanting to feel alive and not dead inside. I've been doing a pretty good job at it not going to lie, i've been having the time of my life with my friends and the night staff at work. I've laughed more then I ever have, but deep down i knew that sooner or later the wall would break away because i've felt it give away for the last couple of days..I hate it the stupid dreams came back and its really starting to piss me off, im not even thinking about that shit but BAM it hits me like a truck all over again, my heart feels heavy. I've been flirting with guys and there was even a guy who wants to go out with me but i dont trust anyone. My heart feels so closed off from the world. And this guy seems like such a sweetheart too and ugh what the hell is wrong with me fuck I hate my self right now its not even funny. Its so easy to flirt with someone when you feel nothing for them, it feels like they are missing something...idk anymore....fuck

Heart on Fire

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