Heart on Fire

Well today was quite the interesting day if I do say so my self. I don't think I've had this much fun in awhile lol..It's was round 2 for Patch in the YACrushTournament by blogger Amy. Let me just say that every TeamPatch member was on high alert today..Didn't fall asleep till five in the morning because i was too busy chatting away with Josh heheh and while doing so i kept checking on the happenings on Twitter and saw that the war against the AMAZING book characters had begone. So naturally i began my Patch is AWESOME campaign. My eyes were burning and tearing up but i kept at it for a bit. I perhaps got maybe if i was lucky 4 hours of sleep. When i work up a bit after nine I already have a bunch of Twitter messages from my fav girls Miss French and Miss Jen. With my eyes only half open i took a peak at what they had said, much to my horror my lovely Patch was losing to a stinking vampire, wth right...The whole day the girls and I kept finding way to cheat and be able to vote more for our fav FALLEN ANGEL. We were all on over drive and trying to think of ways to get him more vote from the rest of the fans. Well we didn't have to wait long for the answer because thanks to the AMAZINGLY AWESOME Becca Fitzpatrick she decided that the more vote her great character got the more money she would donate to children getting book. Honestly I think that's an amazing cause, because I believe that ever child in the world deserves to have the right to read and to learn how to read. Books are one of the strongest tools know to mankind. Without imagination and the power of books and the different worlds they transport us too, the world would be a very boring place. So thanks to her "push" Patch slowly started moving up in the polls. So me being semi creative made a picture to help the cause and because i posted it on FB on the Hush Hush site they took it and even mentioned me and on top of that Drew Doyon the Patch cover model shared it on his page. I was so incredibly touched that i tweeted to him. I never thought he would answer back but he totally did and i was in ah lol. Patches army was kicking some major ass that we ended up hitting the numbers of votes we had to so that Becca would donate YAY us!!The polls got close to each other that Miss Frenchy and I lost it a few times and lost it hahha and Miss Jen had to straighten us out hehehh. But in the end we all prevailed and Patch won the fight to go onto round 3. I'm so happy that I caved and joind Twitter because I met the most amazing people like Miss Frenchy, Miss British, Miss Jen , PatchesOtherGirl among others :) I've gotten tweets from my favourite authors and more. I don't think there could have been a better advocate for Patch, because Jen did an amazing job regardless if all of us fans helped her man win the match. I'm looking forward to round 3, it's going to be a nail bitter, have to work on my art work for it :)

People in this day and age spend too much time focusing on the lives of the "famous"crowd, instead of concentrating on whats going on in their own. If people stopped focusing so hard on other peoples life maybe things in this world would change, or maybe not but one never knows unless change is mad. Sure I'm like every other person on the planet i read my gossip magazines and love juicy relationship scandals lol after all i am only human:p. Biggest scandal hitting the news stands is Kristen Stewart has cheated on the love of her life Robert Pattinson......OH NO THE WORLD IS OFFICIALLY OVER.!!!!!hahah or so some people would like to think. I don't know why people are getting so upset about this and acting like it has ruined their lives. Some lady actually posted a video on YouTube yelling and getting frustrated because K-Stew cheated and how she is a terrible person and that people should be butting into their lives. Yet by posting this video she is doing exactly what she's complaining about, she is whining over other peoples lives whom she doesn't or will ever know. She literally cried tears over it, CRIED like seriously why!!on earth would you cry over something like that. People got to calm down when it comes to the celebrity lives and change their brain waves onto matters of the world that are more tragic then a teen breakup... 

Has the world really evolved since our early years or is now more primitive? This day in age we have developed better technology but at what cost? Sure medical development has never been better but at the same time more people now days are dying because of malnutrition and starvation. Technology may have advanced us in medical, but not all advancements are for the better. Now days weapons are more assessable and deadlier. Most country don't have any gun control nor does the government really care on that matter. Innocent blood is being shed all over the world every day. In the Middle East family are gunned down, people are blown up and families are ripped apart. Women have no rights and aren't free to be their own person. Children in Africa are still starving to death no matter how much effort the rest of the world puts in to help. It seems that the world has become more violent and chaotic thanks to new technology, people have become more selfish and cold towards the things that should matter. this world is in so much disarray and no one seems to really care or know how to help stop it. Look at what happened in Colorado, so many Innocent people where killed and injured, and it could have been some what prevented if there had been a law against purchasing so much ammunition and guns. Everything going on this world is saddening and tragic. It makes my heart hurt and really believe that no we haven't truly changed, we have only gotten worse and more barbaric.......

Social networking is it really all that good for today's society? Or is it more of a hassle?. I guess the only way for one to have an opinion on such matter would have to explore different forms of it and experience it for them selves. Sometimes you just get pressured into join certain groups because your friends of co-works beg you too because apparently it's "to die for" or "you'll be so cool and down with the new trends". I'm one of those lovely sucks whom got suckered into join, Facebook, Twitter, Tagged and even started a blog lol. Not all of my experiences have been the greatest on most of those site but i did meet very interesting people out of it. Facebook to me is more of a place to keep in touch with certain people i care about and having a place for me to keep my pictures so I don't have to worry about losing them. Tagged well I don't really know what to say about that site lol except that it was very interesting and crazy, some people I've met on there i miss like my amazing Japanese friend Hiroshi..he was so adorable. My blog well most of the time I love it, I mean I pretty much get to say and express my self in any way I want to and its great. I don't really think lots of people read it but the ones that do I'm thankful for it :). Now Twitter one of the biggest trends have gotten me hooked lol. I tweet everyday friends think in the morning when I wake up and honestly I love it. I've met too great people on there with whom I love talking to. The are crazy and weird and so out there but I love it because I can associate my self with them and we always have something to talk about, whether it be about a book or movie or why the English and the French hate each other :P. I think being on the right social networking site can be a great thing in may way, you get to meet and learn different things from people from different walks of life. Getting to know my two new Twitter friends is great because i get to laugh and have fun and not really care what people think. Plus I get to hear about England and France more and make me more driven to get my shit together to travel one day :).

To forgive someone is probably one of the toughest things for me to do. I'm the type of person that sadly holds grudges until the day they die. I have the tendency to remember the meanest and crappiest things people have said or done to me. I don't know how many times i wish i could just forget shit and push my pride aside.

I've never really been one to think about cancer or someone close to me dying but it has always been at the back of my mind..A few weeks ago one of my oldest and dearest friends told me news that will forever change her life.Her mother whom she is every close to and loves dearly found a lump in her breast and the doctors discovered that it was cancerous. She had went for many test and had to wait weeks for the results, which i think is retarded for something this horrible our health care system should be alot fast and more sufficient..It infuriates me to see it neglect the people who need the most attention ugh. After waiting weeks they found out it's pretty bad, she has stage 3 cancer :(, she just recently started chemotherapy which is making her vary sick and unable to eat much, she will have to go for surgery and get her breast removed. I honestly don't know how my friend can handle all of this the way she is, she amazes me. She told me that shes just trying to stay positive and try to keep up faith that it will get better. At ever possible chance I get that she needs me, even for just shopping, i'm there in a heart beat. I've been trying to keep her distracted and keep her mind on other things but i just wish there was more I could do for them. As long as she needs me i'll be there to help her in anyway I can because I hate seeing her go through this..:( I keep hoping and praying( even though i'm not the most religious person out there) that her mom will get better and make it through this..I pray that one day cancer will never be an issue in this world.

So I've had a very interesting two weeks, i swear I've barely been home, been dragged out with friends to do so many things from parties, to shopping for 80"s theme clothing lol I'm about ready to pass out :P. But the most interesting thing about this week is i had a DATE yes people i said me,i had a date :P. We went the Forks for a walk and shit lol, he's a nice guy but i don't know, I'm actually enjoying my single life, no worries about being there for someone its kind of freeing not gonna lie, but my friends keep telling me to get out there and date but to me its like why? I'm not one of those girls that need a man in her life but they don't seem to get it ugh of well lol. The crazy thing is for the longest time I've been saying shit like ugh i want to kiss someone and hold and just be held but boy now that it happened I'm like meh hahahah. We made out and i felt nothing at all, i don't know if it was because of nerves or just no spark.....But he was lovely enough to inform me that oh he did feel something that day lol if you get what i mean lol. My friend is all like take it as a complement that you made a guy hard just from kiss him hahahahah. I swear i've heard the best lines ever from guys, from "I'd prefer you didn't break up with me" to " your attractive enough" to the latest one " your hips were mesmerising me, and you're an epic kisser a very sensual girl" hahah oh boy guys amuse me :P